Jesus is now currently under trial by Pontius Pilate. The weight of guilt is now more present than ever and I feel my self realizing the fullest extent of my fault. I don't know how much longer I can take the anguish of this mental suffering. I know Jesus and those before him talk against suicide but now i feel it is my only escape. I have betrayed my friends and those I love for a few pieces of silver and now I must pay a terrible price, my life.